Kiki by 36
in that moment when i saw you for the first time in a while, when you looked like you didn’t know what to do, i wanted to do all the.. doing. i wanted to hug you, kiss you, tell you that i missed you and i love you. but the world that has embraced us is watching us, and in a blink of an eye, that same world would turn its back on us. but i love you, so i’m taking the risk of loving you from afar, hoping that in the littlest smiles and the most subtle gestures, you’ll see the truth and glimpses of the feelings i try to hide from eyes that judge and scorn, from eyes that don’t understand. i hate that i can protect you from the world, but i can’t protect you from the pain i’ve caused you. and i hate that i know that someone else out there can love you freely, honestly, and that someone is not me, and will probably… never be me.